Musings & Thoughts of a Curious Mind and Wandering Heart

As the skies darken Large gusts of wind Thrust their way through Leaving nothing unturned in its path. Selfishly devoted to a senseless state Shedding tears, making mistakes Your chest suddenly feels heavy Your mind juggles all it’s thoughts. You pave way for a distinct future You decline any new offer to submit Life in itself seems to make no sense Yet you’re disturbed unintentionally. Hunger, pain, fear, death All these form a large cloud above your head So far away are pristine meadows Serene, calm, tranquil, peaceful. I am amazed by my surroundings By how I seem to know so little about them I refuse to give up my fanatical ways For they mean the world to me. Hiding away in an alternate world Escaping from the grasp of reality I fear what is to become For I’ve lost hope not in you But in myself my friend.

You know that nasty, sad, heart broken, betrayed feeling that you get when a person whom you see everyday just ignores you and runs around having fun with the next person whom you also see everyday. Yup, it's one hell of a bad feeling. The worst part is you don't even like this person much, yet you feel bad on being ignored. I don't know why this happens, maybe because i'm sensitive and get hurt sooner even for the silliest of things, but it's really stupid of me to feel so down. I've been thinking about this and considering all my options and I've come to the conclusion that maybe i'm just 'jealous'. Yes, i admit it, i don't like being ignored and i totally hate all that extra attention being showered on the other person while i'm not even a living entity to the one who's ignoring me. *Sigh* The funny part is all this sadness, jealousy, hatred and fault finding just because you're (meaning i'm) being ignored. I'm findin...