Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Lurking Sadness, but for what?

You know that nasty, sad, heart broken, betrayed feeling that you get when a person whom you see everyday just ignores you and runs around having fun with the next person whom you also see everyday. Yup, it's one hell of a bad feeling. The worst part is you don't even like this person much, yet you feel bad on being ignored. I don't know why this happens, maybe because i'm sensitive and get hurt sooner even for the silliest of things, but it's really stupid of me to feel so down.

I've been thinking about this and considering all my options and I've come to the conclusion that maybe i'm just 'jealous'. Yes, i admit it, i don't like being ignored and i totally hate all that extra attention being showered on the other person while i'm not even a living entity to the one who's ignoring me. *Sigh* The funny part is all this sadness, jealousy, hatred and fault finding just because you're (meaning i'm) being ignored. I'm finding that highly amusing right now because, i honestly don't even like this person that much (yes, i'm repeating myself :P). Yeah, i see this person on a regular basis and yeah we talk sometime's but it isn't like this person is a good friend or even a best friend. So i'm slowly beginning to accept this ignorance on their (usually it's just one but sometime's it's a combined twosome) part and though it might take me time to get used to this, i still will be ok at the end of all of this.

So my latest thought on this issue is to ignore the ignorance, stop wasting my energy on someone who doesn't deserve it and be thankful for being blessed with awesome friends, family and of course my oh-so-amazing-funny-creepy-crazy gang mates who i honestly adore except when we have MAJOR fights :P

At the end of the day i deserve to be treated better and if i don't get that treatment then to heck with that person cause I've got some amazing people who love, support and back me anywhere, anytime, anyhow.

So that's my latest thought process. I'll be posting again soon cause this 18 year old turns 19 in 2 weeks, isn't that cool??? So till then, thanks for stopping by and merging with my thoughts.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Rukz Methods on how to avoid studying when 'you just have to!!!!'

The clock's ticking 'tick tock tick tock' (yup, its a cliché, i know!!). As the time moves on you get that ominous feeling surrounding you which says 'study! study!' and well what do you do? I for one avoid it till the last minute when i have to scramble around with my notes. Ah!! Isn't this what being a college student is all about?? (well it's like that for me so...you all can have your difference in opinions, i respect them)

So let's get back to the topic. My sure-shot ways of avoiding your textbook for hours (it may or may not be effective and differ's from person to person). Listed below are a few simple methods which help you to avoid studies:-

1. Gather notes ( Only gather, do not read as far as possible) - Gathering notes is a very time consuming process and it take away more than half of your study time per se. So get together with friends, scour the internet and gather, gather, gather away.

2. Play games online- There are so many free gaming sites out there that people are spoilt for choice. My site of choice nowadays is my trustworthy omgpop.com. So people go online and have a blast, interact with people from different nations while battling away with different, fun games. ;)

3. Watch movies- This is something which every student does and thus, doesn't require an explanation per se.

4. Wash clothes- Yes, find the day and time when you're supposed to study to go wash your precious clothes. Make sure that you take you're time washing, rinsing with utmost care and then lovingly hanging them up to dry after which you can take a well deserved resting period maybe even take a nap.

5. Sleep- Take rest, it's pretty important for health. Sleep for maybe an hour or two or if you're game maybe more. You know how it feels when its such a sunny afternoon and you're in your room under the fan and you get this nice feeling which is telling you to just lie down?? Yes, listen to it and be lulled into the world of dreams. How refreshing!!

6. Cook- Food is vital to each and every human being and its yummy when made properly. Take this time to experiment. Go crazy with ingredients and just put in hours of work to make that wonderfully fluffy, yummy, gooey chocolate cake. My experimentation was with eggs, tomatoes and onions and i finally ended up with an overly salted (still digestable :D ) egg bhurji'ish, tomato'ish concoction which wasn't too bad. ;)

So that's about all i got folks. Maybe, i'll add more to the list as i continue to procrastinate. So i hope you had a fun time reading this little note of mine. Do leave you're comment below. Rock On!!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

'TRAIN' it!!!


My first proper article, written for an assignment. One of my first ventures into the world of prose writing ;)

As you descend the steps which lead you to the platforms, you can notice the hustle and bustle of a busy Monday morning. The rush of bodies, trying to catch the train before it flees the station. You can notice the different kinds of people waiting to alight the train. Some are relatively calm, waiting on benches or making light gossip with their fellow occupants. Others are more stressed, running around trying to catch the train. Some are sipping on their morning coffee, while some are catching up on breakfast. The sights and sounds are all fascinating for a first timer to this busy platform on an even busier morning. This is just a glimpse of the action going on at the platforms. The action inside the trains is even more extraordinary though, that is just a minor way of putting it. You could say that the real action takes place inside the trains.

 As soon as you’ve climbed on board the train you immediately notice the occupants of various seats. No one sits freely, idling away their time but are busy with something or the other. Some take their mobiles and headphones out to listen to music while others catch up on their morning meal. Some read books, while others catch up on the latest gossip. As the train starts to slowly move out of the station you notice the landscape around moving in harmony with the slow rocking motion of the train. Then the train gains speed and the rush of the wind in your hair is a wonderful sensation tingling your senses. As soon as you reach the 1st stop, you notice the rush of crowds making their way into the compartments. They might heave or even push others to gain access inside. The scene is quite a sight. But this is not the main action in the train. The main action happens with the vendors. The vendors who come in to sell their merchandise.

 The vendors that you see most prominently are those tamil vendors who come to sell you keychains, combs, jewellery, cotton buds etc. They have an air about them which makes you sit up and take notice. Their skills in sales are pretty impressive. If you notice carefully, you can see that they are skilled salesmen trying to sell their goods. It makes you wonder what miracles they could bring if they were in a corporate sales job. The other vendors sells snack items, handkerchiefs, pencils, pens and what not. Sometimes some people come in and sing, make music and earn money from the passengers. With all these sights and sounds it is a wonderful journey that you undertake while travelling in a suburban train. So take a trip on a suburban atleast once. You will surely not be bored but will be entertained to a whole new level.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Ruckus over Theatre


Being an individual who is pretty used to being shaky (meaning I have stage-fright) in the presence of a large audience, I've had to force myself to participate in many public events (by public events I mean competitions/shows in front of large audiences :0) to get over this shakiness. So my latest venture in this arena was 'THEATRE'.

Being part of a theatre production has been a good learning experience. It was easier considering the fact that it was a part of my college activities or more precisely part of my department activities. In this manner everything was brought to life with a simple idea i.e forming a dept theatre club. Interestingly enough it started out on a good foot, then led to a fracture, followed by a time of healing but soon there was a sprain and finally a good performance. 

Funny enough it all began with me participating in the auditions just for 'fun'. I was surprised when I was selected, but I was happy and excited to try something new. Honestly this is one experience i'm never going to forget, not because it was so much fun in the 'end' but because of all the chaos it ensued in my life. Any production which is even remotely big should be 'managed' properly, but in this case 'mismanagement' was the word throughout the process.

The 'practice sessions' were not a big success in the beginning. Our main actors were working on another theatre production and couldn't attend the practices for over 2 weeks. The first 2 weeks were monotonous with script readings and no real practice sessions. By the way, we were doing script readings without a finished script. Yes, we had to manage with bits and pieces of the wonderful script courtesy our ever perfect director whose name i shall not mention as of now. As the days went by practice was becoming more like hell. Some of us would reach there on time to find that everyone else hasn't come, will come in a few hours or have just decided not to grace us with their ever grateful presence. Wow, doesn't that sound like fun!!!

Then after those long 2 weeks our main actors came and thank god they did. We then started practice properly, beginning with exercises and then moving on to the script which was still 'incomplete'. It was a struggle at first to get into character, for me personally. Just mere weeks before the play was to be put up, my character was swapped. Wow, how great was that?? It was a big struggle for me throughout the play to get into character because i couldn't seem to stop being myself. Later on we had a friend come in from another college and help us out. She was a savior and she really helped me out a lot, along with helping the rest of the cast. In reality she was the one who was actually directing the play and any member of the cast would agree with that statement. So finally we were rehearsing properly and enthusiastically.By the way i forgot to mention the fact that our designer had no idea as to what the story was about as our ever so perfect director shied away from telling her the story, how innovative of our director to come up with the 'find out the story on your own' mode. I finally narrated the entire story to her as she was completely exasperated. The same was the condition with our musician, as he wasn't given a script and was 'script-less', till i finally 'rescued' him and gave him the scripts that i had-on-hand. 

Boom, a big bomb gets thrown just a mere week before the play is to be staged. The venue allocation had gone haywire thanks to the undecided date of performance. At the same time our wonderful director decided that she was too 'intelligent' to bother with the script for the last scene (yes my dear friends, the script was still 'unfinished') and announced to the actors that they must 'improvise' it themselves. What a blow that was and what 'great timing'. The venue was somehow fixed towards the end and we all breathed a sigh of relief but all was not well. On the day of the performance we lost the venue as it was already booked by someone else. Couldn't they have mentioned this before rather than giving us the venue and then taking it back? We then decided another venue in our own dept, but we had problems there and we lost that venue too. With all hopes lost and at wits end, we made one more try to get a venue. Finally we got a venue and it was fixed. Then we moved to the venue, got everything prepared and were getting ready for the performance. Our director was about to leave citing illness, but somehow our friends convinced her to stick around. We all stood holding hands and said a few words of good will and then left to rock it out on stage. The performance began on a good note. Our set designer managed the set changes with finesse and our musician gave some awesome background scores that left your feet tapping. Everything went on well and my scenes went well too. We were all beyond happy by the end of it and that was the end of over a month long of hard work, lost appetites, angry screams, sleepless nights, hopeless tears and heartfelt smiles.

We got good applause from the audience and were to happy to know that they had enjoyed the play. Our teachers came up to congratulate us and so did our peers. It was then that the fact that the play was a success dawned on us. After a few group pictures we all left with a happy feeling at finally being over with this chaotic production and at seeing it be a grand success. In this manner a new venture came to an end. It was fun and exciting, but it was also hard and at times stressful and disheartening. So in the end the 3 idiots mantra comes to mind, "ALL IZZ WELL". :) :D ;) :P