Musings & Thoughts of a Curious Mind and Wandering Heart

As always my random thoughts crowd my mind. I wonder what I’d do if my so called flashes stop appearing every now and then. I guess I’d think I was like every other normal person I’ve met and freak out. Where’s the fun in that? From being called crazy, dumb, naïve and totally stupid, I’ve had almost every possible not so nice but somehow funny adjectives thrown at me by other people (friends, colleagues, maybe even acquaintances) though at the end of the day I still stand in front of them as the same old immature person I am (not really but still…) in front of them without budging even an inch from my stubborn, obstinate and idiotically ridiculous stand. The funny part is how I change my nature like a flash of lighting as soon as I’m 100 meters away from them. I’ve never been the quiet, shy, girl who takes time to interact with others. I’m thankful for that because at the end of the day I’m not over the top lonely and curled up in a corner. Sometime’s I get crazy ideas like I want to

These were my thoughts just before Feb 14th 2011 made it's splendid arrival. Enjoy!! I sat there under a blanket of stars, just looking up and wondering how something can remain so beautiful yet so pure. Stars always give me this romantic aura that’s not easily describable. It’s like they brighten my entire outlook and are out there, far away in the night sky looking over me like my guardian angel. Every time I see a starlit sky I start smiling with all my heart and jumping like a 5 year old girl who suddenly remembers twinkle twinkle little star on seeing this amazingly beautiful sight. As always I remain there, noticing the stars emitting their glorious light from afar, while the cool breeze blows. I think about many different things and very rarely I remain there totally speechless, just enjoying the moment. The stars are one of my escape routes from reality. They help me leave my troubles behind and just remain in the moment. Sometime’s I wish everything would remain exact

Wistful thoughts evoking illuminating smiles Progressing willfully through the edge Yet I sink down to the deepest, darkest bottom And find it hard to reach the edge. I regret whatever has become For I’m someone who is very needy And though the light of joy shines occasionally The devil manages to ensnare me with his lures. I wish it had never happened For now all I’m left with is tears For you no longer seem to care And I no longer wish to stay. Somehow somewhere I missed a step Lost my sight and feigned a slip Though I expected a call of rescue All I received was silence and more silence. As I evoke all my strength And walk away with my wound all bare I still wonder every starlit night Why you’d never made it to my side. I am compelled to oblige to thy whim I am forced to apologize through thick and thin And through these dark and dusky woods I oblige, I oblige, I oblige. Forgive me for my thoughtless stray For I never meant it to be that way And as I leave I shed one fin

Being someone who's not new to blogging I guess this is going to be a fairly easier experience in terms of publishing/posting things online but the difficulty is to actually continue blogging on a regular basis. So Hi I'm Rukmani and I'm an 18 year old girl who is in the path of understanding herself and life. I'm basically your average teen who's pretty stubborn, obstinate, reckless, kinda idiotic but surprisingly thoughtful at times. Through this blog I hope to slowly improve my writing expertise and as well as increase my vocabulary. So feel welcome to enter my world and merge with my thoughts, my feelings and get to know the girl behind the translucent mask (ME!!!). So lets start blogging ;) ....