Hopefully taken care of someday

'Take my hand, take a breath, pull me close and take one step, keep your eyes, lined to mine and let the music be your guide...' these are my favorite lines from the song 'Can I Have This Dance?'

Singledom to me signifies the ability to lead an independent life filled with joys and laughs so bright that you never feel alone or lonely. These last couple weeks my perspectives have been changing. I'm beginning to consider the thought of having someone around. All these years it's been the same story with me where in I end up taking care of those around me and begin neglecting myself. The last year and half I've been running around so much and stressing such a lot that I'm neglecting myself yet again. Through all these endeavors I constantly wish there was someone around who'd look after me for a change. It's very difficult to do 5 things at the same time and still find time to remember to take your meds on time or eat on time especially when you have a busy schedule from 5 a.m to 6 p.m.

Life has to move on, you have to continue working, you'll still remain busy as hell but it wouldn't be so bad if you could somehow try to take care of yourself along the way. It's difficult and it's stressful but I have to force myself to bother taking care of myself since I know my health is on the line. Yet, I still continue hoping, wishing and even praying that one day miraculously somebody will just begin to take care of me for a change while I run around with my erratic, hectic schedule and who knows, someone might actually come forward someday, sometime, somewhere.

Ever hopeful and still holding on to whatever faith remains in my being,
Rukz

 

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